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NADIA
I'm not giving up.
25 December 2013 | 4:07 am | 5 human(s)
Haluuu. Long time no see, right? hmm sometimes just need time to release all my stress and be alone . sad but i have to accept the truth that i don't deserves him. but i like him too much ... so much that i think i would die. such a sad story of me. hmmmmm.
Sometimes tertanya-tanya jugak kenapa life aku cemni kan. bila suka dekat someone then orang tuh pulak tak suka kita and more sadly dia tahu kita suka, tapi dia ignore je. but now i don't know dia tahu ke tak yang aku minat dia but hm please lah tahu weyh.
Penat sebenarnya berlakon jadi kawan kau. to be honest aku layan kau maybe kau anggap sebagai kawan but hm how much i wish i can say to you, "starting today, you're mine." teringin actually nak cakap camtu but well to you, i'm just a friend, rite?
Oh susahnya nak terima hakikat yang you're not mine but to me, i'm yours. aku tak luahkan bcs i don't wanna things get awkward sampai kita tak bertegur but susah tahu tak nak hilangkan perasaan nie and well ramainya suka dkt crush aku.
That makes me want him more. aku taknak orang lain rampas dia dari aku ! jealous :')
Irfan being asshole with me ya know and that makes me hate him more! seriously how can he said aku couple dengan Zuhairi then cakap aku buat salah pstu taknak mengaku . weh come on lah! masing-2 dah besar kan so boleh fikir sendiri.
First, aku tak ada wechat.
Second, aku tak pakai phone.
Third, aku tak kenal siapa Zuhairi.
Itu pun salah ke kalau aku tak kenal siapa zuhairi? lepastu fitnah aku couple dgn zuhairi. eh celaka nya perangai awak irfan :') rasa nak tampar lelaju je . dah aku reject nak getback dgn kau then kau tuduh aku macam-2 pulak. no wonder lah semua benci kau
I REALLY REALLY WANT! biar diorang belajar hargai apa yang ada. actually kalau korang stalk aku, aku dah tak berapa nak ngam dengan crush aku lagi dah well dia dengan life dia, aku dengan life aku. tuh yang ad orang cakap aku dah give up.
Hell no because there is no give up in my life. i'm just stop trying. because i know he will never know i like him and that's gonna hurts me more. you should think before do because not everything gonna workout well so just think even that's seems easy.
This is not just girly things because guys also want this too.
Korang takkan tahu betapa penatnya kalau korang tak pernah lalui something yang menyakitkan sampai rasa nak bunuh diri. maybe some of them alrdy died because of this but here is me, stay strong facing everything that hurts me.
No matter what i just can't stop liking you. well sama jugak macam irfan, dah couple dengan dia sampai setahun then tiba-2 break sebab dia curang. mula-2 benci but slowly dtg balik perasaan sayang then bila dia buat perangai, let's benci membenci to each other or block je terus.
Now aku dah completely benci irfan sebab dia tuduh benda yang aku tak buat langsung!
 
That's all more than true. my feelings ugh seriously i need to go to some place that could makes me feel better or pergi jelah luahkan perasaan dekat mamat tuh then regret bila dia reject kau sebab dia cakap, "I can't have a girlfriend" and that picture showing gambar single wallet tebal then bila ada girlfriend jd kosong tkde duit.
Tapi aku shopping tak spend money using someone that's not related to me moneys T.T aku shopping pau akak aku dengan ibu aku jeee! hm kang kalau gitau dia nampak cam fake sebab dan-2 tuh tak guna duit lelaki padahal gila shopping. pehh annoying nyaaa life cenggini. nak luahkan perasaan pun kena berfikir dulu.
Kalau camtuh kahwin terus jela. hikhiksss.
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